While I have a time of wakefulness and energy I wanted to write to say a deep personal thanks for your prayers for me over the last week. It has been a time of testing that our good God has seen fit to put me through to deepen my understanding of Him and be better prepared to serve Him for His glory. While I am not fully back to normal I am thankful to be strengthening each day. I have learned much of what it means to trust God, lean on Him and have Him carry me when I could literally not lift my hands.
After going through 2 CT scans, 2 x-rays, an abdominal ultrasound, an EEG, an echo-cardiogram, an mri, a colonoscopy and multiple rounds of blood work, my collapse while preaching and subsequent health issues remain a mystery. While at first I wanted an answer, I have spent some time reflecting on mystery and have realized that it is much better. Mystery deepens my faith as I recognize that there are yet happenings in this world that cannot be explained by man, it causes me to run and cling to my Father as my rock and only source of hope and it makes me trust Him more deeply knowing that each day I must rest in His care. I would have preferred to find some reason, be prescribed some treatment and know that I would be better in a certain number of days or weeks but I am glad that our Father is wiser than I.
I will close with a quote God encouraged me with before all this happened which has even deeper meaning to me now, it is from A. W. Tozer’s Knowledge of the Holy “With the goodness of God to desire our highest welfare, the wisdom of God to plan it, and the power of God to achieve it, what do we lack? Surely we are the most favoured of all creatures.”
Surely we are the most favoured to be loved by a perfect God and Saviour who hears us when we cry to Him,
Pastor Joel Eastwood